I finally got out how I’ve been feeling since July 27, 2013.. The day my life changed.. To hear how you thought I was immature about the situation, because I moved on.. To hear you say that you being the father ruined his and my plans, to hear you say when it all began.. you didn’t want to talk to me and you just KNEW that I didn’t care.. all these blows, but I didn’t care. It was all about getting out how I felt, since day 1. Coming to an understanding was not part of the plan, it was a bonus. I’m just happy I got it all out. It’s like a weight was lifted off my chest. Now what you do with your life, is totally up to you. I closed the chapter of my life called 2013. Now I’m on the next chapter called 2014, page 1, line 1.. the author… ME.
I don’t even know where to start. I’ve retyped and deleted this sentence I don’t know how many times… I guess I’ll start by saying I just wanted the truth.. I hope that’s not asking for too much? I’m carrying my son right under my heart but I feel as though he is my heart.. And I want what’s best for him, starting with honesty. If you felt like he isn’t your son, that’s all you have to say. Voice how you feel, be a man. Because whether you believe he’s yours, or whether your in his life or not.. he still has me, his MOTHER. Like my dad always told me, “Momma’s baby, Daddies maybe.” Like I said, I just want what’s best for him.. starting with honesty. Do you think this is your son or not? POINT, BLANK, PERIOD.
Cake Batter Fudge
1 cup yellow cake mix
1 cup confectioners’ sugar
1/2 stick (1/4 cup) butter, cut into small squares
1/4 cup milk
Mix cake mix and icing sugar in microwave-safe bowl. Add butter and milk. Don’t stir.
Microwave for 2 minutes. Stir immediately until completely combined. Add sprinkles. Do not overmix as sprinkle colour may bleed.
Spread into greased pan. Refrigerate for at least one hour.
- i wanna try thiss! :) yum.
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Tears, Mistakes, & Heartache.
People make mistakes in life all the time; if you didn’t make mistakes then you aren’t experiencing life. You aren’t going to do everything perfect, you aren’t going to dot every “I” and cross every “t”. You’re going to have some minor setbacks, some major ones, and you’re going to have some major come backs.
But that doesn’t mean that you sit back and you dwell in it. You accept it; you ask god to forgive you, and you dust yourself off and for god sakes, MOVE ON. But in some cases it’s hard to move on and push past your mistakes if there constantly thrown in your face. If you fall short, and you KNOW you have fallen short, and there’s evidence that you have… –Looks down at belly- then you don’t need a reminder… its already there to remind you. With every nudge, and every kick… you know. Your life isn’t over. Your dreams, wants, and goals? Of course there going to be harder to reach now. But that only means that you work harder, and smarter. Not give up.
I’m young, but that doesn’t mean my life is over, it only means that it’s beginning a littler earlier than planned. That means I get to fall in love with your little fingers and toes, years earlier than planned. I must admit, I never envisioned my life like this. This is exactly what I didn’t want to happen, but aye… things happen. I’m not pleased with my actions, but it’s a lesson learned and a blessing bestowed upon me. I PLAN to be a child psychologist, I PLAN to travel the world… I PLAN to do all these things, my plans never changed. My path I was taking, it may have veered off a bit but I’m getting back on track.
You may not see it, but then again it’s not meant for you to see. I know what I want; do I have to make a rash decision right now? NO. Because as long as Ja’ Meka knows what Ja’ Meka wants then there should be no issue. We all fall short sometimes, we all disappoint sometimes… but instead of knocking one another down, we should acknowledge where we have fallen and say “what can we do, to get back on track and set you up so that you can get back to walking?”
When I need you the most, you give me harsh words and criticism. But when I walk away, where else do I turn to when I counted on you to help me through this? Like I said, tears, mistakes, heartaches, and turned backs… I’m feeling for you, but it doesn’t seem like you want to be reached..
baee, where you at? Bofl. ♥
Aha, that’s real.